Narcissistic Personality Disorder or ?
I'm wondering what I would have done, say 500 years ago, if I had a great all-natural dog-food recipe, felt my zealous nature noteworthy, or thought my awkwardness in group settings was hereditary? Would I have become a snake-oil salesman, a preacher or a poet to share my thoughts? Would I have drove my family crazy without an alternate outlet or would I have just been silent and drove myself crazy? This blogging, facebooking, emailing, blah-blah-blahhing is making me feel a bit schizophrenic.
I vacillate between thinking the compulsive need and access to disclosure is evolutionary or is completely ridiculous and possibly nuts.
Tell me... am I alone here (Sybil)?
I vacillate between thinking the compulsive need and access to disclosure is evolutionary or is completely ridiculous and possibly nuts.
Tell me... am I alone here (Sybil)?
Let your less eloquent brother take a stab at this. Blogging, facebooking, e-mailing etc sitting behind the protection of the computer is a bit like being $#!+faced at the company Christmas dinner, except that the computer takes the place of the booze as a way to lower your inhibitions.
ReplyDeleteThe need to vent can come from lack of attention as a child, inferiority complex, the desire to right wrongs, to protect others, or just because you're human....ok, maybe that last paragraph is just an expression of my own reasons for pissing people off on face book.
Everybody needs an outlet for whatever is going on inside their brain. That outlet can be internet, going to the shrink, or talking to a stranger on a stool at the local watering hole. It's just human nature. Does this make you nuts? Absolutely not. Are you nuts? Possibly.
Maybe this is simplistic, but I think that at least a part of it is what it is that you are actually doing with your life. You may have many other artist-farmer-bee-keeper friends - but you are my only unique friend that is leading a life less ordinary like yours. The the blogs I read on FB are: Chris highschool friend who recently took a 1-year job in Hanoi with his wife & 3 small kids, my college friend with breast cancer, and the fit-to-fat guy:). The rest (and there are many)...I don't bother with. I don't really care what other suburban moms that I went to highschool with have to say about their witty kids & weight loss goals.
ReplyDeleteWith our impending move, some people have asked me to start a blog. I've actually had 2 people use the term "so I can live vicariously through you". And I kinda like the idea because...well, a lot is going to happen that is going to be really different from my life here. Chris & I were there last week & some of the things we are signing up for are crazy/fascinating to me. I'd like to share that...but also don't want to have the running monologue in my head about what I am going to write about (it's already started). And I hate writing things others will read. I may look into where I can get a video blog account - then just post videos...
As for the conplex question of evolution vs. narcissism. I think it's both and all - some do it because it's a new way of communicating and sharing their joys/frustrations/thoughts/ramblings fulfills something within that provides joy...and some are narcissistic/crazy. You are not the latter my friend.
Love you!
Gina
Thomas - good perspective and your ability to shift through the poetic BS and get to the core is refreshing. The point of my blog was to share the dissonance that exists in my full and amazing life, and be honest in sharing it. I'm always a bit leery when the dark side rears its head, because it's a vulnerable place to be, sharing it. But, crazy always likes company... :)
ReplyDeleteGina - Thank you for your feedback. It reminds me again of why I'm doing this blog. Yes, it helps bring clarity to my life when I take pause to put it in focus enough to share. But, you're right, the blogs I follow offer me something I need/want - insight, instruction, entertainment, stimulation, escapism. I'm certain that cow poop and frogs don't fulfill that for many, and let them move on. It makes me smile to know you connect with me - with my process - and so you fill my meanderings with deeper meaning. I love the video blog idea! And I will wait with baited breath to see it! Your adventures always take me to places I learn from. Yep, you helped reaffirm that I will keep blogging. Big love going out to you as you start your amazing journey!!!
Keep writing love!!!!
ReplyDelete(and maybe someday I'll figure out how to reply as myself instead of Anonymous)
gina :)